i hate crushes.

I know for a fact I'm not the only one that hates the shxt out of this feeling. It's fun the first couple of days, but after a couple days, it gets OLD! Paranoia mixed with butterflies and a side of temporary insanity. Not cool and certainly not cute! On top of all that, all of you closest homies know so you have all of your girls talkin in your ear (them chicken heads know who they are!)! That just adds to it all the excitement during this stressful time!

You go 2 weeks of over reacting and stressing at every little comment and you get fed up with it. You are now faced with the dreadful decision: tell him or let the thrill die. Telling him can lead to one of 2 things: he feels the same and you like happily ever after (until we separate for college) or he's like fxck no, you ugly whore! And letting the thrill die will just mean you wasted time, endless thoughts, and unlimited text on this jerk off. It's the ultimate lose/lose!

I'm currently crushing really hard on a guy. I think he's like super cute and extremely funny. All I listen to is cheesy songs that talk about this spark of insanity. I just hate the feeling because I am an obsessive type of person. When I really like something, I'm usually fixated on that thing for a while and I pick it apart and put it together over and over again. Not cool when it comes to person! And on top of all that, I haven't had a crush since like sophomore year! This is a foreign feeling. And when I say foreign, I mean like Montezuma's Revenge! These butterflies feel like nausea. Then comes the word vomit.

EUREKA!

That is exactly it! Having a crush is the equivalent to being deathly ill! I think that should be an excuse to be out of school. You're not learning anyway. Your too busy watching him take notes to realize what the teacher is uttering. Now I'm gonna go to my doctor, tell her my symptoms, and hopefully I can get some days out of school!

But in all honestly, having a crush is alot of fun....the moment you realize it! The excitement. The game. The extra big smile. The waking up a little early to look that much more cuter. So I think I'm gonna look at the positive and try to forget the fact that I got bit the love bug.

[thats how my ass lookin when I see him!]