Summer Jam: Tyga x Beat'em Down Brown - G-Shxt

So I was totally against Chris at one point, but this song has turned me around. I'm a sucker for summertime, feel good songs. With my graduation in 5 DAYS!, I'm starting to feel like school is over and summer has started and this song is that icing on top. Listen to the song and tell me what you think.

Friendship to Relationship to Regret.

So earlier today, I was sitting on the bus just thinking like I always do & my ex boyfriend popped in my head. It was awkward because besides when I see him, he doesn't really cross my mind. I just thought about the friendship we had, how it was easy to talk to him, and how he was like one of the best friends/people I had ever come to know. Then I slowly migrated into thinking about when we crossed the forbidden line. Our relationship was great and we tried it 3 times, but ultimately wasn't meant to be. *tear tear* yada yada. Then I was thinking...why in the blue fuck do people tell you to be friends before you decide to be in a relationship with someone?! Honestly, I like to disagree with that statement wholeheartedly! Don't get me wrong! I'm not with the:

Boy: "Hey baby! You sexy!"

Girl: "Ooo, yeah papi you are too!"

Boy: "You sexy & you know I'm sexy so uhhh, maybe we should be together."

Girl: "Ooo yeah baby. I think that idea."

And bow, you got a new relationship.

No. I don't condone that at all. You should get to know the person on a more mental level, of course, but take it from me, a person with personal experience on this issue, losing the friendship may not be all it. Of all my relationships, I have the most regrets with this one. When you are really close to someone and you decide to take the leap into a relationship, you let yourself fall way faster than you should without even knowing how they are in a relationship. The fact that they were your friend will make you give them more leeway and it just becomes a emotional roller coaster. & the worst part about it, you will NEVER get that friendship back. NEVER! Those of you that have a best friend of the opposite sex know how special that bond can be. Then when you choose to be friends again, you and the other person slip right back into your old ways. It's not worth the loss.

I know this post is kinda personal, but I just had you get that off my chest. It's something that I want to want to protect all the people I really care about from. Smdreads. I'll try to keep these post few and far in between.

Dead girl in the front, Dead cop in the back, & 2 live bitches screaming OddFuture is back!

So I've been listening to this little crew of kids called Odd Future for a minute now. They are pretty awesome! If you enjoys songs about fat hoes, rape, & masturbation, this may be the group for you! I was on the bus listening to Earl and was jamming out. So I decided to share the greatness with you.

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It dropped like 2 weeks ago, but this kid is a little demon child and I just had to share him with you all.


I think that might be all I have for today. There is so much more OF music out there, I just dont feel like finding it to share. Maybe another day.

xoxo

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New mixtape drops April 21! Excitement just ran through my body.

& also, Hodgy Beats (the hottest guy in OF) is doing a mixtape that should be coming quite soon.

Good Ass Job?!

Kanye West. *sigh*

What is there to not to love about him? The assholes of assholes. The biggest cockiest nigga I've seen this millennium. And we all sit back and enjoy all his antics.

Well said Yeezy. Oh & we can't forget...

Funny shit..

I've been listening to him since 6th grade til now! I even bumped 808's and throughly enjoyed it, though it reminds my on my junior year flings. That's irrelevant though. I caught wind that he was coming with 'Good Ass Job' and got REALLY excited. All my Kanye fans or music followers know what I'm talking about, but for those that don't...

'Good Ass Job' was suppose to come out after 'Graduation', but when Ye's mom died (R.I.P Donda West), he went into a depression and made the greatness that is '808's & Heartbreaks'. Now that we are all on the same page...

This shit is about to be EPIC! Word is that he's going back to rapping and that is something I've been waiting for! Autotune is all good, but to hear some new shit where he's spittin, I'd give a million dollars and some sexy ass Cambodian midgets.

But anyway! I have school in the morning. Time for the victory lap.

Tightrope.

For those of you that don't know Janelle Monae are SERIOUSLY missing out on some great soul, cybertronic music! This woman has single handedly helped me through relationship problems, heartbreak, and finding my self. Yet, I've never seen her a day in my life. I guess that's what good music does to us. If you need some positive, whole hearted music in your life, I think she may be the one.
What drove me to white this was her new video, 'Tightrope' featuring Big Boi. And her new album The ArchAndriod has me on the edge of my seat! So you should click around Youtube and listen to some of her music. Hope you like it!

& I'm Single!

Sorry I been on a super hiatus!

I hate not blogging, but the last few weeks have been CRAZY! I started talking to my ex, got back with him, and got dumped...ALL IN 2 WEEKS! School has been shitty. Ready to graduate (as we all are). Home hasn't been the coziest of places. & on top of it all, it's all been building up because I haven't been blogging my feelings away.

*exhales* That was a lot. Let's start with what I'm going at this very moment. I have 4 tabs open in Google Chrome (which I highly recommend. it won me off Firefox!). Those tabs are this blog, Sushila's formspring, some book on Amazon, 'Create Post', & Facebook. I am listening to 'Control' by Kid Sister, but I decided I wanted to listen to 'Appletree' by Erykah Badu, so that's but playing now. I need to be doing lit homework, but I got a nice 86 in that class, so I'm good on homework. I need to shower, but that was a bit personal. =/ & last but not least, I really wanna take FB pictures.

My mind is running a mile a minute at all times for some reason now. I think it's the shock of the last 2-3 weeks. I have never had my emotions so out of wack. I'm thinking about crankin a real life hiatus, but virtual life will be all on. I'll only talk to my circle of people and keep all other out. Maybe that'll help me while I put my head back together. Switch back into my gear again.

Anywho, I'm gonna go to bed. Got lit., AP. Econ, & Current Issues tomorrow & in 2 of them classes, I KNOW this healthcare thing is gonna a hot button issue bruh.

Good night guys. I love you mas and thankies for letting me vent to you.

Music is my drug.

So I'm sitting in my moms room and listening to music on Grooveshark because imeem decided to merge with Myspace for whatever reason....shitty. But that is beside the point. I'm listening to all these old songs I used to love when I was like 14. OMG! This shit is crazy! As I listen to all of these songs, I feel myself getting all antsy and my heart rate rises and I just wanna get up and dance my ass off. This proves that music drives me. School is super stressful right now, dealing with a recent death. And even through all that, these songs lighten my move instantly. That shows you the power of la musique (French for dat ahh!).

Repping MHS hard, just like Rajaan would want us to do. LOL. I'll do a REAL update soon enough, but like I said before, school is SO stressful. I just have to keep my goal in line...MAY 21, 2010! :)

xoxo

PS. This post is dedicated to Rajaan Bennett. He has impacted many people's lives, while living and in spirit. MHS loves you so much Rajaan. Nobody will every wear #5 like you did.

Just when I thought she couldn't get any better...

She opens her mouth!

For those of you that don't know, I LOVE Amber Rose! She is like my #1 bitch. She's fine & she had a fat ass! WHAT MORE CAN YOU ASK FOR?!

Ever since she stepped on the scene with Kanye with her Dr. Martens and her liquid leggings, I've been madly in love! She just walked in the room and BAM! She was all anyone saw. Shit...all I saw. The only thing that kinda didn't sit well with me was that I had never seen her mouth open! I thought she was a mute or speaking threw off her sex appeal, but it didn't! I'm still madly in love with her, even after her less that perfect interpretation of "I want it that way". She was a dime, but now she's a....quarter? ....that sounded better in my head. ANYWAY, I heard she was suppose to be the leading lady in the Robocop video and I'm way too excited about it man! OMG! ...I'm so gay right now.....no homo to thos whole freakin post. .....WAIT!

Thats for all the male readers! LOL. Okay, no homo for real! hahaha!

xoxo

P.S.- She has the craziest New York/Jersey sounding accent! WTF! I'm falling deeper in love man!

Renewed Obsession: Big Sean

So over the summer, this was my guy. He is sexy as hell & he lyrically able to make my panties drop! HAHAHA! This is his freestyle to Lemonade. It's beast! I heard he had a new mixtape coming out and I'm very excited. I love my pop, r&b, reggee, & rock, but I NEED some hip-hop in the mix.

hot sex on a platter.

Why must he be so beautiful & why isn't he in my life? This is the type of stuff that makes a girl have baaad dreams. ;)

*gasp* I forgot to tell you guys!

I started my gauges!
I know this picture is extremely ugly and I look sick, but I just woke up and I'm trying to hurry up and get ready to see my baby cousin get baptized. But yeah, my gauges! I started at a 14 and it didn't hurt, just stung! It's didn't bleed until like a couple day ago....i need to stop playing with it. LOL. Well yeah, I'll keey you guys updated on this journey to ear heaven LOL. I'm off lovelies.

xoxo

Fxck That Valentine's Day.

So Valentine's Day is approaching us. The one holiday I have always dreaded. It is the time of year where all the assholes that are in love get mushier that what they normally are. From having practically sex in public to over-sized bears and nasty chocolates, it is a horrible holiday that should be permanently removed from the list of holidays (i couldn't think of another word LOL).

This is me on Valentine's Day.

Don't be upset my prettys. I like to sit back and think about think about things. I try to become as numb as possible because if I don't, all of the pink and red will send me into a depression that'll result in a nervous breakdown. Then you'll see me running around like Danger from Ray-J of Love. I think about ex-boyfriends and how they fucked me over. I think about all the shitty guys I've talked to. & to top it all off, I have a annual Fxck Valentine's Day Dinner with my main girls. It's a great time to just guy bash & laugh at all of the couples around us, just knowing they aren't having as much fun as us!


That is me and the crew at dinner! Epic right?

In all honesty, I'm not the total scrooge for V-Day. I wish I had a guy friend around this time. Someone to just cake with nonstop and make my play toy for the day. Those nasty ass chocolates wouldn't be so bad if I had a sweetheart with a nice ass to share them with.

But until that day rolls into my soccer field of life, I'm gonna just say fuck a valentine's day. Those pussys can't party like me anyway!

My Mainstream Fix: Usher- Hey Daddy (Daddy's Home)

I usually hate song that says things about daddy, but this song is waaay too sexy! Plus Usher old ass lookin right! :)

Guys in skinnys *panties drop*

I don't know what it is, but I have this thing for guys in skinnys. It is just so freakin sexy! The fact that a guy can go against the status-quo and wear skinnys while the whole world is calling you gay. That IDGAF attitude just makes me melt. Ugghh!

When I say my panties melted off and ran away when I saw this picture....whew! This is Kid Cudi's silhouette BTW. Gotta love his fine ass! I dont know where it comes from. Maybe it's because all of my guys friends wear them so that's all I see when I go out. Maybe it's because all of my favorite artist wear them. Maybe it's because my last 2 boyfriends wore them. IDK what man! The idea of seeing my guys donk (or lack there of) in his jeans just brightens my day. It's beautiful thing my people.
So guys, short, tall, thick, skinny, try skinnys at least once! For me at least loves! & to those guys that are thinking about approaching me, make sure you wear your skinnys. I only think twice if I can see you ass when you walk away...=)

xoxo ;)

PS - Kid Cudi, marry me. Please.

GaugesLove.

I have come to the conclusion that I am getting gauges. I've always been facinated by them....but never thought of myself personally having them until recently. Now before you guys start turning you nose up at me, I wont want to have like monster gauges!
Not the move. I only plan to go up to somewhere between 8 and 6. Thats like this big:

Somewhere around there is when I will stop. I know I dont want them forever, but I want them now. I still haven't asked my mom....she's gonna shoot it down, I already know, but I'll try to talk her into it. When/If she say yes, I already know she's gonna go on and on about how I'm throwing my life away, blah blah blah. Whateverss man. I can't wait though!

I'm in anatomy right now and we're copying notes, but I got to page 2 and quite frankly, the muscles are not that intresting. So research on gauges and care for them was the move. The bell is about to ring so I gotta goooo! Ttyl! Have a great day guys! I know I will! :)

My New Jam: Noisettes - Never Forget You.x.Bad News Meshup

This go hardd! They might just be the new obsession of choice.

WTF is this?

It's starting to look like I'm gonna have to make the Nicki thing an ongoing series of post. This is unreal. STOP!!

For The Fellas: Stock Yo Fridge For The Ladies ;)

Looove this shit! LOL

When will this shxt be over?!

119 Days.

That is the day on the horizon. The only day that makes any sense to me at this point. It's the second semester of my senior year. Slaving at the same school for 4 whole years. Seeing the same assholes from year to year. Dating that bum you hope to never see again. It's inevitable. After all that CRAP that's thrown at you, senioritis is the natural course of high school life. Look at me!


I like to think I look like a nice girl. I always thought I would never be the one to suffer from this "disease", but I am. I, literally, have the attention span of an 4 year old. Wanna see my notes from class?

What a shame?! And one of which is an AP class! Sad right?

I don't know what it is. Maybe it's the fact that I'm so close to the end, I think I got it. This semester is the victory lap, and I got the lead. I need that freshman mentality back. I was hungry freshman year! In the words of Lupe, "I used to hand my homework in first, like I was the classroom starter." Now, I'm the last to turn in shit, if I even do it. The shame on my teachers face used to make me feel bad...but now it's just another day in the life of Jup.

AND IS IT ME, or does ANY & EVERYONE get on your nerves?! OMG! I swear, I stop liking someone every single day. Somebody will say something stupid, or walk the wrong way past me, and I'll just roll and eyes and BAM, they on my shit list. Currently, my shit list is working on page 10.



In conclusion, senioritis is a diease everyone will face at some point. When you just stop giving a fuck. When you wanna sleep in at all time. When you stare blankly in class and hope the teacher doesn't ask you to pick up where she left off. When you get off the bus/ hop out your car and whisper to yourself, "Welcome to Hell." When you texting skills reach their peak. And when the guilt of a forged late note becomes a thing of the past. It's senior year, baby. Now enjoy it! & that's if your like me and can sleep in half your classes and manage to get a B. If you can't, I advise you to wake up me love.

*PS, if you love me, you should buy me a shit list for graduation!*

M.I.A. - Space Odyssey

It's been a minute baby mama!

Please help the beautiful people of Haiti.

I've been wanting to post something about the earthquake, but I never knew what to say. I am in so much pain for all the people of Haiti. They are suffering down there with NOTHING! I wish I had money to donate, but I don't. I am going to donate food and clothes though. I want to encourage everyone to help and donate any way they can. I know at McEachern, there is a food/clothes drive. I really want EVERYONE to donate. Just put yourself in that situation. I couldn't even imagine. My prayers and loves goes out to them.

Please help your brothers and sisters in Haiti. Please.

And to all the people that want to blame those people for this devastation, you are pitiful and disgusting and I am sorry to see you people get publicity. The fact that those people are SUFFERING with nothing to their name and you have the nerve to kick them while they are down! You are the scum of the earth and I wish nothing for you. I prey Lord had mercy has on your soul.

....that really make me upset you guys. Sorry for the hostility.

I hope you guys have a great day. :)

Hat turned sideways. Lookin' like a fool.

This is my anger. Though it may not look like I'm angry, I'm a actually a very unhappy camper. My computer got a virus. =/ So not I have to update on my moms laptop. It's the Mac so I'm good bruh. But I have this intense fear or my computer spazzing out and talking to me. Well guess what? MY COMPUTER DID THAT LAST NIGHT! I was saying something about AT&T, then a song started playing and porn was all over my desktop! I was on the verge of tears because I was so scared. It was baaad!

Scary as fuh! I'm never turning that thing back on man! ...yes I will, when my mom fixes it. I'm so lucky to have a mom thats uber computer saavy.

But that part of the post was NOTHING compared to what I'm really here to talk about.

General Larry muhfuckin Platt!

He is my new hero! He went on American Idol and became the new and improved William Hung. "Pants On The Ground" was the best thing that has happened to me. It is an amazingly hilarious song! If you haven't heard it, you must!

Amazing, right? Pants on the ground man.
That's it.
General Larry Platt. MY American Idol. :)

*FUN FACT*
I found this cool keyboard when I was looking for a monster computer.

Cute right?!

RIP My Ghetto Nail.

They popped off in drama and Jade had a really good laugh! It was so sad! The like popped off one by one. It was NOT fun! :( I'm gonna go crawl under m bed now...not really, I'm in class.I need to do work.....BYE guys!

I got my ear bit!

BREAKING DAWN!!! :)

Sunday Macbook PhotoOp!

Liberate.

FB Default!

Lettin my soul glow.

I had alot of fun today! I went to my grandma's house. As as you guys will learn, I spend ALOT of time with my grandma! No, she's not sick. No, it's not forced. I just love it over there! LOL. I had a really good week and this Sunday just topped it off! I had a very lazy Friday and Saturday but I did think alot about life and everything I'd like to accomplish and it's making me excited and scared at the same time. I'm excited to do everything I want to do, and I'm scared I'll never do it. It's a crazy feeling. But yeah, I'm gonna go back to Facebooking and texting. I love you guys. Thanks so much for jumping on board!

Nails Nails Nails!

Sooo, I really like ghetto, outrageous, over the top nails!

My Current design!

Cute, right?! This was the Asian lady's take on cheetah =/ BUT I still love them!

Here are some other designs that make me swoon!

The utter fierceness of hooker nails make me a happy camper.